Shades of dark

I had it all,

and then nothing,

It slipped like sand in my hand

It felt good letting it flow through my fingers, But then it was lost Or I was? Or maybe I am. But if I am Then I don't ever want to be found They say there's a light at the end of the tunnel But my ghosts love the darkness I was asked to let go of my demons But I had them when I had no one How can I leave them? I can't be this selfish. They breed on my blood, But what's mine is yours, right? But I am not yours, My dreams are your nightmares, I let my ghosts play with them. I tried to run away, But my shadow followed me. They say you feel comfortable right before you're engulfed by it, And I'm loving it right now. You can't save the one who is falling in love with drowning. The swim tube they threw at me, I punctured it. Let me be free Right here, right now I'm free. No one knows how liberating it is to be devoid of emotions The darkness is not black It has a multitude of shades And I'm camouflaged in all of them.