Forever

For a while, I had it all, and then none. It went like the sunset on the peak of a mountain, graciously but fading. I could feel your hand losing my grip but I was so tranquilized by the euphoria of the yellow haze of the sunset that even before I could figure it out, it was all gone and dark. So you know the thing about the mountains that you can see the millions of stars shining above your head, and I couldn't help but wonder that these stars several light-years apart come every night to see their loved ones smile. And at that moment I couldn't figure out whether I was still on the ground or up above in the sky looking for you and crying. I had land beneath my feet but couldn't touch it, my head was knitting thoughts but I couldn't think. Maybe that's when it hit me that you are gone, you are gone forever and in these silent hills, all that's left of you is your fragrance which I could feel sinking deep into my skin. I saw you lying next to me but your warmth was gone. A chill went down my spine shaking, trembling down I fell to the ground. The snow started to seep into my clothes, my arms and legs were getting numb but I couldn't move or maybe I didn't want to move. Do I really need to live in a world where I can't feel your breath on my skin? So tonight I lay down by your side and close my eyes for the very last time. I know the sun will rise tomorrow, this snowstorm will cease but I'll be gone by then. beyond the fact of right and wrong, beyond the places of superficiality, to the place where the sky meets the ocean, with you we'll make love till the forever ends.